A shout out to all those who feel stuck trying to trust or make tough decisions that have trust linked to the core of their successful "choice" navigation- that frozen state of fear when trust has been abused- I see you.
The thing with abuse of power and or the abuse of authority in people struggling to overcome significant trauma is that trust becomes broken on a huge scale. Its hard to measure the impact until it slaps you in the face- again. A raw ugly fissure crying out for all the things that could reclaim effective problem solving skills. Minus shame, guilt, anger, and betrayal. Rather instead confidence, bravery, and ability to stand by your choices because you can gain a healthy perspective of those in power. When doubt is washed out of the wounds- trust can emerge.
Today I find myself needing to learn trust in a new way. When you have your autonomy 'removed' and you have no choice but to rely on others and ask for help- self perception can waver. This is where trust becomes a valuable skill set. To be able to overcome prideful defensiveness or instinct to self protect; it is in this space of the heart that one can heal faulty thinking and beliefs. Self criticism has less permission to camp in ones mind when self care has permission to rise up.
Today I am saying YES to trust and YES to self compassion so that I can rewrite the false impressions I have of the world and of myself. I hope for everyone struggling with having to be stoic and strong (in a sense of feeling alone in life); that true ability to let ones guard down and believe in humanity can arise up louder- once more.
